Hi, my name is Sophie, I'm a Junior in high school and I live in a suburb in New Jersey. I'm seventeen and have a lot of shit going on in my life. I've always wanted to keep a diary but have never had the patience/motivation to actually write for more than a week. So hopefully this will be different because there is lots of stuff in my life that I should probably write down and hopefully other people will find interesting.

I guess the most important part of my life right now is my struggles with anxiety/depression. I'm a self-injurer (cutting/binge drinking) and have a terrible tendency to pick the worst guys to get involved with. There isn't much to say in the first post but I'm going to try to be as honest as I can (because i've never been honest with ANYONE) so I hope whoever is reading this finds it interesting\

I picked my username from the song that I think best describes my life right now. It's "Paralyze" by Tila Tequila (and its on youtube and amazon music) I know Tila Tequila is super cliched now and most people dont take anyone of her music seriously but all of the song lyrics describe my life right now.

That's all for now